Take it with a grain of salt..

Motherhood is a journey all it's own. No one can ever fully prepare you for what you are in for. Sure, sure, you get all the old wives tails, the advice from your mothers mother past down, and advice from complete strangers. Although it is entirely up to you to decide what to do with the advice. Thus the dawning of motherhood. You now have someone fully dependant of you. They need food, shelter, clothing, and most of all your love and bonding. No one can prepare you for how tired you will really be, good sleeper or not. No one can prepare you for those moments of frustration when your little one is grumpy and will not be calmed.
This morning was a beautiful morning to me. It was pouring rain and nice and warm. Those are my favorite mornings to wake up to. I think rain is beautiful. It makes me realize there is a God. I feel like rain is a cleanser for our souls. Maybe our son takes after us... considering he was out last night. Every day gets better and better with our son. I love him to death. Most days he is a really easy baby. I guess everyone has their bad days. Today Jaden was not really a happy camper in any sence of the word. Last night he slept rather well. Today he thought only one nap was in for him. I really hope that means he will sleep a long time tonight. Tomorrow is going to be a big day. My dad and step mother are comming to lincoln. I'm excited because we have not seen them since our wedding. This will also be the first time Jaden gets to meet his grandparents. I know they are super excited! Who wouldn't be?
Well I think that is all for this update. I better attempt to get some food going for supper before the little man descides to wake up. Tonight is chicken alfredo. MMMMMmmm my favorite.

Love.

2 weeks old

Today marks Jaden being two weeks old. I love looking at his pictures and seeing him grow so

much in such a really short time. Every day I grow as a person, a mother, a wife. I love being

around Jaden. Sometimes it gets hard and I get really tired. In the end it is all worth it when I

see him gaze at the big world around him, or go crosseyed because his eyes aren't quite strong

enough. I just love watching him watch and learn from the world. I can't help but wonder what

he's thinking. I can't wait to see what he is like when he is a toddler. I know I say that I can't

wait, but in all honesty I CAN. I want to enjoy my son one day at a time and I know that these

days will go fast, faster then we want them too. I will just have to come to accept that. I think it

is amazing to think that Aaron and I could create such a wonderful thing. Thinking back on my

labor experience. It definately did not go AT ALL like I would have planned. I went in to get

induced. I go in around 6am to find that 1. we were not on the schedule to be induced (but it was

in my file that I was to be induced that morning) 2. The women who were scheduled for that

morning were being delayed because there were so many on the schedule. They apologized and

they had me come in later... which ended up being around noon. I went home and tried to get

some extra sleep. We went in the did a round of cytotech which got things started. Then the

doctor checked me and broke my water. I wasnt progressing, so they started the dreaded

Pitocine. Let me just go on the record say I HATE that stuff. The contractions were aweful. Now

I know why women are begging for epidurals.. because I was TOTALLY one of them. When

they were comming three right on top of one another and the nurse told me they would have to

amp up the dose again to even make progress I told aaron you better press that button for some

pain medication! Granted I was not in that great of mood. I was too in pain to worry or be scared

about the epidural. Once I got that I was pretty much in heaven. I cannot believe how great that

stuff works! This happend about 3:30 am and by 7:30 that morning I was being told that a

c-section was in my future. I came to accept that I just wanted to see my baby and I was ready.

I didn't need to get any extra stuff put in since I had the epidural. At 8am they told aaron, who

had just woke up, that he needed to change for the c-section. By the time he got ready they were

ready to take me in to surgery. Basically they took me in and in less than 13 min our son was out

and I was in recovery waiting for my son to be brought to me. I got to feed him and do a little

bonding. After I was okay in recovery they took me back to my new room where my mom was

waiting, and they took Jaden for a bath and what not in the nursery.

Overall I did really well recovering. I felt awesome after surgery, granted I was still on all

my meds. I was happy with the experience despite it not going the way I would have liked. Now

I know why people want to have more children, its just so gratifying. I really hope we have

another. It wont be for a while tho. I really dont think I can handle two children so close

together I am pretty sure I would go insane! Jaden has been doing really well. He has no lack of

appetite. He is super strong. He really holds his head up well for how younge he is. Well that is all

for this evening. Jaden is still sleeping so its time for me to sleep a little as well. I hope this finds

you all well!

love.

New Arrival/ Update

Jaden Alexander Pelster was born March 27th at 9:42 a.m. his weight was 7lbs 6oz and he was 20 and 1/4 inches long. He was born by c-section after a failed induction. He wasn't born the way we planned but we love him just the same!

After four days in the hospital we got to come home. Jaden's personality grows each day! He is a great sleeper once he gets to sleep. He is a super eater ( go figure). We love our new addition to our family!