2 weeks old

Today marks Jaden being two weeks old. I love looking at his pictures and seeing him grow so

much in such a really short time. Every day I grow as a person, a mother, a wife. I love being

around Jaden. Sometimes it gets hard and I get really tired. In the end it is all worth it when I

see him gaze at the big world around him, or go crosseyed because his eyes aren't quite strong

enough. I just love watching him watch and learn from the world. I can't help but wonder what

he's thinking. I can't wait to see what he is like when he is a toddler. I know I say that I can't

wait, but in all honesty I CAN. I want to enjoy my son one day at a time and I know that these

days will go fast, faster then we want them too. I will just have to come to accept that. I think it

is amazing to think that Aaron and I could create such a wonderful thing. Thinking back on my

labor experience. It definately did not go AT ALL like I would have planned. I went in to get

induced. I go in around 6am to find that 1. we were not on the schedule to be induced (but it was

in my file that I was to be induced that morning) 2. The women who were scheduled for that

morning were being delayed because there were so many on the schedule. They apologized and

they had me come in later... which ended up being around noon. I went home and tried to get

some extra sleep. We went in the did a round of cytotech which got things started. Then the

doctor checked me and broke my water. I wasnt progressing, so they started the dreaded

Pitocine. Let me just go on the record say I HATE that stuff. The contractions were aweful. Now

I know why women are begging for epidurals.. because I was TOTALLY one of them. When

they were comming three right on top of one another and the nurse told me they would have to

amp up the dose again to even make progress I told aaron you better press that button for some

pain medication! Granted I was not in that great of mood. I was too in pain to worry or be scared

about the epidural. Once I got that I was pretty much in heaven. I cannot believe how great that

stuff works! This happend about 3:30 am and by 7:30 that morning I was being told that a

c-section was in my future. I came to accept that I just wanted to see my baby and I was ready.

I didn't need to get any extra stuff put in since I had the epidural. At 8am they told aaron, who

had just woke up, that he needed to change for the c-section. By the time he got ready they were

ready to take me in to surgery. Basically they took me in and in less than 13 min our son was out

and I was in recovery waiting for my son to be brought to me. I got to feed him and do a little

bonding. After I was okay in recovery they took me back to my new room where my mom was

waiting, and they took Jaden for a bath and what not in the nursery.

Overall I did really well recovering. I felt awesome after surgery, granted I was still on all

my meds. I was happy with the experience despite it not going the way I would have liked. Now

I know why people want to have more children, its just so gratifying. I really hope we have

another. It wont be for a while tho. I really dont think I can handle two children so close

together I am pretty sure I would go insane! Jaden has been doing really well. He has no lack of

appetite. He is super strong. He really holds his head up well for how younge he is. Well that is all

for this evening. Jaden is still sleeping so its time for me to sleep a little as well. I hope this finds

you all well!

love.