Family, changes

Today I went on the search for a white button up dress shirt and a simple black tie for my nine month old. In a place as big as Lincoln you would think that would not be hard to find. WRONG. Only one store had the dress shirt that was under size 2T. Shirt, check. There were a few places for ties. Luckily Sears had plain black ones. I almost got one too big for him, but at the last minuet I found one the perfect size. Sheesh, who knew this was a hard size to find? I knew boys clothing was limited, but not in dress clothes. Come on people. But all in all I found a shirt and tie for our upcoming family pictures.

Aaron went out this morning and, upon returning, kind of dropped a bomb on me. He said he was seriously thinking about wanting us to move back to cozad Nebraska. Ugh. On one hand If he could get his old job back at Baldwin filters then I could be a stay at home mom. WHOOP. The problem is, I don't know if I could handle living in such a small place. It would be nice being around some of his family. I know he still resents moving to Lincoln for me. On one side I am for it and on another I really am not. I do not like the idea of being so far away from my family. Mostly from my mother. My sister is already planning to move further away. I guess that is part of life. I just fear being too far away from her. On the other hand I would be somewhat closer to my father, step mom, step sister, brother, and sister in law. That would be a plus. I just think it is a lot to think about. Who knows maybe it would grow on me. I just don't like the idea of uprooting so soon. I mean what if i have another child before we move? We won't have near enough money to put a down payment on a house in a few years. There is so much to think about. My head is spinning to much right now. I think I will just have to stew it over for a while. Huge transitions like this are a tough call. I guess prayer is what I need now. One day it will all make sense.

love.